I believe an update is warranted since I’ve made all these life changes…
It honestly feels like I have taken felix felicis, aka liquid luck (for all you non-Potterheads out there). It feels like every single move and decision and thought I make is the right one preparing me for the future I so wish to have. It’s incredible.
I haven’t felt this type of motivation in years. Solely because I had no idea what the hell I was doing or what the hell I wanted. Now, though, each day is it’s own step toward a greater goal. I am first and foremost bettering myself as a human. I’m changing the way I think and how things make me feel. I’m changing how I react to things and the way I talk about things.
It sometimes feels strange. Mostly because I’m not used to it, but it feels right. My body or intuition or whatever it is is telling me, assuring me that what I’m doing is the right thing. It’s wild. And I’m happy because of that. That all makes it so worth it to me. I went to bed one night thinking so hard “I don’t want to feel like this anymore”- weighed down by my anxiety and depression- and the next day I still felt that thought strong as hell. I thought “maybe this’ll work” about, seemingly, the most random things, but it worked! Simple things.