under the guise of a holiday

This is my second Thanksgiving all alone. No family, no friends, nothing. I’m as happy as can be.

I haven’t been too fond of the holidays for quite some time. I like to pretend they’re just another day, but the biggest excuse to do nothing and go nowhere. It’s quiet and peaceful this way. I get to hang out when it seems it’s the most quiet out in the world.

It feels like everyone just makes too much of something that’s meant to bring people together. There’s too much hype, too much stress, too much underlying resentment. We’re all just supposed to hang out, what’s the big deal? How does it always end up being hateful or incredibly sad?

I have a problem with trying to make everyone happy. I wish too much that when family is all together, we could just be happy and have that be enough. Any other time, it can be that way, but under the guise of a holiday, it isn’t that way.

Anyway. Don’t feel sorry for me. I prefer it this way. I’ve had a great day and it might not be unlike any other Thursday, but under the guise of a holiday, it feels so much more peaceful. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, in any way that you celebrate it.

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4 thoughts on “under the guise of a holiday

  1. Nat says:

    If it helps, I felt like I spent Thanksgiving alone although I know it’s not the same as actually being alone. Having one of my parents around doesn’t count because, in this day and age, I hate it to say it but to some degree the smartphone era has somewhat erased what it means to spend time together and not be glued to a touchscreen. I am guilty of getting way too comfortable with barely saying a word to anyone and just going for my phone to keep me entertained. I also think it’s just that I don’t have people in my life that I can count on to hang out with. I’ve had friends in real life, but none of them last long for one reason or another.

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